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Day 1 of Commission:

Today is my first as warden of Rentus Base.

It is an honor, to be sure, but I almost refused, given recent events.

I wonder if my appointment was at all due to pity? But I must dismiss such unworthy thoughts.

I will do my best to live up to the expectations placed on me.

Day 33 of Commission:

I have been quite busy of late. Plans to fortify our position are proceeding ahead of schedule.

Already two new structures are complete, and the smiths report that weapons and armor have been finished.

My work load increases daily, but I do not mind. It makes me feel useful, and it helps me forget.

At any rate, tomorrow we begin construction on the expansion of the Residential Zone.

Day 40 of Commission:

There was a terrible accident today. An unstable explosive detonated, and only Raynon's selfless sacrifice prevented an even bigger catastrophe.

I could not help but think of Kerran. He saved many lives the day he died.

Was it worth it? Many of those he saved only went on to die in later battles.

How many more of us need to die? How many more spouses and children have to leave behind grieving families?

Day 48 of Commission:

Since the terrible accident, thoughts of my Kerran and Alanna come to me daily.

I wrote a letter to Nillis, but I never sent it. No need to burden him with my brooding.

I see the casualty reports. So many lives cut short.

We fight for our freedom, but will there be any of us left to enjoy it?

Day 53 of Commission:

I am still trying to come to terms with the news.

The notification came early this morning, and I still hold the letter in my hand.

Nillis is dead. He was displaced in a skirmish near Elementis Forest.

My eldest son. My dear boy. Gone.

I'm all alone. All three of my children are dead now. I'm only glad their mother never lived to see this day.

Day 55 of Commission:

It's hopeless. I realize that now. All we do is toss our children to the Worgs.

We train soldiers and forge weapons and think that we can do anything against the might of Tiamat.

Even if we bested him, another Dragon Lord would step up to replace him.

We would start the same cycle all over again, and waste even more young lives needlessly.

Nillis. Kerran. Alanna. What did I sacrifice my children for? For a stalemate? I cannot accept that.

Day 59 of Commission:

I have thought it through. The Reian Tribes have only one hope for survival.

The Balaur came to the negotiating table once. That means that, to some degree, they too must want this war to end.

And I've heard the whispers that Fregion, mightiest of the Dragon Lords, is concerned about the Balaur's lust for blood and power.

This is something that can--no, must--be exploited. It is the only way I can think of to end this war before more lives are lost.

For the sake of my children, for everyone's children, I must try.

Day 72 of Commission:

I finalized my bargain with Brigade General Vasharti: information and access in exchange for the safety of the Reian Tribe.

There is no way to take Rentus without the deaths of those within. I cannot deny this upsets me.

But the Brigade General has given a personal guarantee on behalf of Lord Fregion that these will be the last Reians to perish.

I have told them much, about many things.... Things I never thought I would reveal.

But if I am a traitor, so be it. If no more children die, it will all be worth it.